Last weeks stress

Hello readers,

it's the last few weeks before we go on holiday and those weeks are always the most stressful.
I have reports to write, planners to fix and the last few touches are to be placed on my kiddos before I send them off to the next teacher.
Truth be told, in two weeks time I will be overjoyed that all of this is finally over.

They told me that my first year of teaching would be horribly stressful and difficult. I believed them, I just didn't realise that it would be this bad!! I've had little to no free time this past year and it's been horrible. I want to say that it'll all get better next year, but truthfully I'm not too sure about that!

I have one day off next week to get through more reports but I want to get through at least half before that day so I can do other things as well. I have currently done 2 and I have 19 to do in total. I am doing my best but it is so hard. All the IB terminology and the different documents that need to be cross-referenced while your'e writing! It's driving me a little insane!

I've managed to fall completely out of my training routine, which sucks a lot because I now have 51 day to go until my holiday. Hopefully I can keep doing a little every couple of days until June 13th which is when the kids are on holiday and we just have things to do while we're at school. This means that I'll have spare time when I come home and can work out like a crazy person!

Ok, break over - back to reports now!

xx
~Zandrina

Stress

You know that feeling, that no matter how many things you get done or how hard you try to catch up or be as good as people expect you to be - you never get there?
Yeah, I've been feeling that alot during the past few weeks. I hate it.
I hate feeling like this, I hate not having time for anything that I like anymore. I hate having 9 videos that I filmed lots of weeks ago and now half of them are redundant because I just say things that are in the now - and then I freaking forget about them and when I find them it's like.... Yeah, not relevant anymore....

IT SUCKS!!!

Ok, I'm done, I don't want to bore you with my life, or my patheticness... I go on Summer Holidays in three weeks time. Please make the time til then go REALLY fast and then I'll hopefully get to where I want to be.

xx
~Zandrina

Day 1

Oh my god, I'm in pain already!

I hated the routine but loved it all the same! I feel it in my body already! Love this rush!

Let's see if I feel the same way tomorrow when the pain kicks in! ;)

~Zandrina

30 Day Shred

Yes reader, you read that title correctly.
I am embarking on Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred starting tomorrow. I have already started to take control of my body by working out 3 of the 4 days I've had off from work. I am in so much pain it's ridiculous. My legs hate me and that's a fact!!

However, in 78 days I will be in Cyprus, in a bikini. And usually when I have to wear a bikini I feel phycologically ill. I hate the way my body looks without clothes. I can hide under clothes and noone has to know what I look like. Bu now I've decided that this has to change.
I had a breakdown in a changing room on Friday and I decided, no more.
I'm changing my life now, and I'm starting off with something that quite frankly scares me and makes me feel pumped all at the same time. I'm going to be the fittest I've ever been when I board that flight, and I'm going to feel damn good about myself!

Talk to you tomorrow, if I'm still alive be then!

~Zandrina